Hi!

I’m back once again.  I don’t know if this is going to be a short lived blogging session.  I have failed multiple times before when I try to do a blog post.  I don’t know what it is that keeps me from blogging more often.  I guess I do but I’m more timid to admit it to myself. The thing is I get lazy when it comes to blogging.  There’s just a lot of things that go in my head when type up that blog that I lose my thoughts.  Then I second guess myself about what I just typed up.  And now I have to reread what I just typed.  And when that is all said and done I sit there thinking if I should post what I just type out and share it.

I have friends that have said that I should just ship it no matter what.  However for me I just have that really hard time sharing something that isn’t just right.  You know?  I know what I’m going through isn’t unique by a long shot but it is something that I go through every time.  So I don’t know.

And I guess, the most frustrating thing is that when I am in the mood to blog, the timing is just off.  It usually happens when I’m work.  I know, I know that I should either do it early in the morning or later in the day but the thing is that I just can’t.  From waking up early to type out my thoughts to typing them out later, it just doesn’t work.  I get distracted way to easily right now.  I don’t have that headspace to do it.  Excuses, excuses, excuses, I know.  But what’s a guy to do.  I should just suck it up and deal with it but I think that is a cop out too.  Because what it does, I believe changes the dynamic of whatever it is that I am posting.

For example, right now, things are flowing fairly well.  I’m basically just typing out what I’m thinking.  A stream of conscience is what really is being typed right now.

I can’t help but think that I used to do this more regularly.  Not blog per se but more journaling.  I used to be really good at keep a journal but like other things before I have let that slip into the way side long forgotten until I see something that makes me think; I should have been doing since way before.  But I didn’t and then I think of the what ifs, should have been, I wonder ifs; come to mind that it baffles me into a overwhelm goo that makes me lazy before I even started.  The steam that was steaming at the start just gets lost and goes down to a boil and simmer.

So I guess what I’m saying now is that I will make another attempt to make this blog a more frequent thing where I will share whatever it is that I have on my mind with you all.

So here’s to another push on the blog.

Thanks for reading.

Oliver