I’m back once again. I don’t know if this is going to be a short lived blogging session. I have failed multiple times before when I try to do a blog post. I don’t know what it is that keeps me from blogging more often. I guess I do but I’m more timid to admit it to myself. The thing is I get lazy when it comes to blogging. There’s just a lot of things that go in my head when type up that blog that I lose my thoughts. Then I second guess myself about what I just typed up. And now I have to reread what I just typed. And when that is all said and done I sit there thinking if I should post what I just type out and share it.
I have friends that have said that I should just ship it no matter what. However for me I just have that really hard time sharing something that isn’t just right. You know? I know what I’m going through isn’t unique by a long shot but it is something that I go through every time. So I don’t know.
And I guess, the most frustrating thing is that when I am in the mood to blog, the timing is just off. It usually happens when I’m work. I know, I know that I should either do it early in the morning or later in the day but the thing is that I just can’t. From waking up early to type out my thoughts to typing them out later, it just doesn’t work. I get distracted way to easily right now. I don’t have that headspace to do it. Excuses, excuses, excuses, I know. But what’s a guy to do. I should just suck it up and deal with it but I think that is a cop out too. Because what it does, I believe changes the dynamic of whatever it is that I am posting.
For example, right now, things are flowing fairly well. I’m basically just typing out what I’m thinking. A stream of conscience is what really is being typed right now.
I can’t help but think that I used to do this more regularly. Not blog per se but more journaling. I used to be really good at keep a journal but like other things before I have let that slip into the way side long forgotten until I see something that makes me think; I should have been doing since way before. But I didn’t and then I think of the what ifs, should have been, I wonder ifs; come to mind that it baffles me into a overwhelm goo that makes me lazy before I even started. The steam that was steaming at the start just gets lost and goes down to a boil and simmer.
So I guess what I’m saying now is that I will make another attempt to make this blog a more frequent thing where I will share whatever it is that I have on my mind with you all.
So here’s to another push on the blog.
Thanks for reading.